Alone, i lie among the broken rules,
I made for myself so long ago...
If i just let go and stop breathing here,
Would anyone ever know?
Passing beneath my cold waves of emotion,
Falling under my freezing ocean.
Digging for myself, an early grave,
Bury me in your arms and tell me it's ok.
I cut myself away, from foolish mortal ties,
Forever hide my eyes in darkness,
No longer see or hear the lies...
No longer feel the pain.
What have I done? I'm falling,
Far beyond everything and all,
Can't even hear myself calling
As i scream my way out of this world.
I scream away the demons i see coming,
As the darkness swallows me from ins
Use me,
Use me,
Treat me like you're paying and you want your money's worth,
Abuse me,
Abuse me,
Call me names, treat me lower then dirt.
Just leave me laying here,
Ignore my pleas for mercy,
And when you break my heart again
Don't hold back or feel sorry for me.
Just ignore me,
If I, try to speak.
If I start making sense just shut me out,
I'll come crawling back next week.
If I say I love you,
Avoid the question, just walk away.
If I say I want you,
Just make something up, I'll believe what you say.
Use me,
Use me,
Treat me like a slave, you know I like it when you do.
Abuse me,
Abuse me,
Of course, why would I ever wa
i stopped crying today by insanemystic, literature
Literature
i stopped crying today
In the depth of my depression
From the bottom of my soul
I love you more than I love myself
A love that makes me ill
Cut myself to see it bleed
But more so you can see
I need help but I cry alone
It's how i'm meant to be
I understand you love her more
I made myself listen and now I know
I don't need to cry alone
I'll just wait til she is done
She's too young to want forever
Which is what I would have give
If you think you want her so badly
That's fine i'll wait for the end
If I have to wait til the next existance
I'll wait there for you
Maybe by then you'll see her lies
And see that i was true
My subconscious suffocates me.
Everything becomes unreal.
I'm swallowed as I enter in
A world that has no feel.
Your gentle wings they spread to fly;
To carry me beyond.
I can sense your nearness now,
Your heartbeat keeps me strong.
You hold me close as I descend,
Keep my head above the flood.
I sink with you still holding on,
As my soul parts from body's blood.
Sometimes I wish for you so much
That I can feel you next to me
Though unreal, it calms my heart
And soothes my souls' lonely agony
I run my hands right through the dream
Feeling the touch of your skin
I imagine your kisses against my lips
And as I breathe I pull you in
I lose myself in this illusion
I drift away with you
But when I wake
My heart will break
As I learn it was untrue
Sometimes I wish for you so much
I'll dream you into my space
But no matter how good the dreaming gets
It cannot match you face to face
Look.
Am I an orange?
Soft fruit beneath tough peel - my protection.
Peel me slowly, sensually.
Tear down my defences.
Taste my love.
Waste my softer sides.
Treasure the peel while you take the best of me.
Throw it away when you're through.
Look again.
Am I an egg?
You look longingly at my perfect smoothness.
You compliment it.
You take me and gently break me in two.
Watch my insides gush out - my emotions.
Am I not so perfect once you've seen what's inside?
You discard my broken halves.
What now?
Am I a cherry?
Sweet scarlet beauty on a stem.
Waiting for you.
Take advantage.
Pull me down and devour me.
But wait - the s
Current Residence: Cardiff, city of...well...short annoying people Favourite genre of music: Metal/Grunge/Punk Personal Quote: Reality is at the end of your dreams, your dreams are at the end of reality
Favourite Visual Artist
Salvador Dali
Favourite Movies
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind + Clockwork Orange